kalau kau sakit, maksudnya kau pernah sihat
kalau kau pernah sedih,  maksudnya kau kenal akan erti gembira
kalau kau kecewa, maksudnya kau pernah meletakkan harapan.

sakit, memang sakit. tapi rasanya lebih elok menangis tiga jam, kemudian jadi seperti biasa.
daripada senyum, sembunyikan rasa dan merana tiga bulan.

tapi tadi imran datang riang, tersenyum buat kusenang jalan terkengkang-kengkang
terus terbang semua kesedihan
siapa sangka, tak sampai 3 jam bersedih
dah ada pengubat.

p/s: rasa macam nak cari kerja part time? cuba di sini

When i first said that I want to go down to Penang, a colleague couldn't understand why i should. When I told her that I had to help out, she was still flammoxed by the idea.

Well, if it wasn't the family who had to do settle the bunga telur and stuff, who are going to do it? So, that's why I'm here.

 'syot terbaik malam ini,' kataku kepada kazen sendiri

The arrival of the people who wants to help out with the bunga telur and all started at around 3pm.The place was full with aunties, having all the bunga telur and stuff. And of course, with kids. Cousin, who is now 15, screamed bloody murder at a bunch of kids running around (running amok more likely) inside and outside the house due to the excitement of a small reunion. She was really tired, just came back from school and was just taking a nap before heading of for tuition. Me? I went straight down to help the people with bunga telur. After a two hour nap that is.

Around 7pm, most of the people helping out (some were neighbours) started going back home. Not before having dinner here first of course. So, it was my cousins and me doing the bunga telur. And believe me, it was more than 400 (some will have to be done tomorrow).

Around 8pm, Makcu came all the way down from KL . I have been longing for a bit of entertainment since 6pm and it was what I got once she set to work. She is a schoolteacher, a headmistress actually and you know how it is like having to make all the decisions. Since evening, the host has been making the decision but now she stepped in, directing this and that. The thing is, host won't given it.

First it was the bunga telur

 

' Isn't the theme orange?' She was eyeing the bunga telur in front of us with suspicion.

Hosts' daughter: ' Ini tema dia bunga telur suka hati mak pak aku' and then laughed.

Host (husband): ' Mak ja. Bukan pak. Pak dia duduk tepi kedai, dok lena tengok mak dia dok tunjuk-tunjuk bunga'

And we had a good laugh about it. We as in my brother and I. Crazy devils.

Then, there was the problem with how many muffins and kuih to put in each bag. Since Makcu is a schoolteacher, we became her colleagues and were asked to co-operate. We were divided into different division.

Division 1: Put the muffin and kuih in plastic bags.

Division 2: Plastic bag will be sealed using a machine that I do not know how to operate. At all.

Division 3: Will now add the sealed plastics into another plastic with bahulu

Division 4: Wrap them all up (my division)

Division 5: Put the wrapped up thing into gift bags

 semua pun macam gila teruja dengan gamba gift bag. haha

Division 6: Put everything in the car and ship it over to another house.

kecederaan diri sendiri tercucuk dawai haha

I'm just glad that we did it the traditional way. Of course, the problem of having to sit down (bersila) from 6 until 11 is not the best experience in the world, I don't regret it at all.

Maybe, we no longer cook food for weddings in big pots anymore but still, I'm glad we still work together for the bunga telur and stuff.

After all, I'm very glad we still do it the old way, with chaos and all.

2 jam setengah sedih
hampir setengah kotak tisu abis
satu cawan hadiah dari dome
bersamaan dengan kegembiraan sepanjang hari

terima kasih

p/s: ini adalah sama sweet dengan iklan digi yang ada lagu hindustan ada kucing menari-nari itu :)

just got back from mak's house. the pinggang is crying with agony, trying to get the owner to fetch professional help due to the pain but noooo...we've got to live with that pinggang because nephew is going to get bigger,so you'd better endure it. and here's the heartbreaker:

just woke up from sleep so that explains the face

  alhamdulillah, i don't take coffee every single day anymore. although the first week was really excruciating, it gets better after awhile. thank you for those who supported me *wipes tears. i can't thank you people enough *blows nose. i can survive unless i'm extremely sleepy. i still can't stomach green tea every single day but I'M NEARLY THERE. 

  life's good, yesterday managed to help someone review a movie on futsal. i really hope it can be of assistance to his futsal magazine and if you are a huge fan of the game, please do not hesitate to sign up. and that includes you cousin, ha tu bajet aku tatau la ko bace tu. amacam smalam keje? oke? hari ni nak belasah baskin robbins tak? mesti kau nak muntah dah tgk eskrem tu. 

  oppss sidetracked. 

  anyways. here's another interesting happening at kapasitor.net. this is the first time the website is going to have an essay writing competition for schools in Keningau, Sabah. in fact, this is the first time kapasitor.net is going to have any type of competition like that. for more update on that, here's the link to read the full story. so pupils in Keningau, wait for the competition because it is coming (i'm messaging the head of the competition but he has not replied yet so brace for it). 

  ah cross-stitching! here we come! 

  eh jap. main game dulu :D

ada eloknye kalau dibeli topeng spiderman utk bekal sebulan
tapi surgical mask pun mcm cool kan? lagipun tgh heboh juga H1N1 2nd wave
tak pun buat sendiri je topeng
kan senang

dang
apsal apsal apsal?

selamat menyambut maal hijrah
semoga permulaan yang fani ni bakal membawa kepada satu perjalanan yang menarik

this has to be the best weekend ever!
i got to meet some friends, catch up with them, celebrate life with them and everything
its just the best

thanks for the free ice-cream
terbaek la cheesecake ice cream itu
i'm not even sorry eating it

dan kamu
saya harap kamu tabah dengan dugaan ini
mungkin sudah sampai masa mereka
kita yang tinggal, marilah sedekahkan al-fatihah untuk mereka

she was rubbing her eyes at 1 am. but still, she had stacks of papers to complete. but heck, it was a good day.she was happy and satisfied.

she was very busy these days. she even forgot to write an entry about The Lost Diaries of Adrian Mole. it was a present from a very very very good friend. a birthday present. she thought it'd be weeks before she managed to finish reading the book from Sue Townsend. How wrong, how very very wrong. she dropped everything and peeled the book from page to page. Adrian Mole never change. He still speaks in the same voice, echoing the loneliness with a touch of snooty-ness that she can barely understand. but heck, it was one hell of a book. she loved humour and nothing can beat dark humour. she lived on it and she realised that most of her collection are about dark humour.

adrian mole is now in his 30's and are left with two young kids. a single father, jobless and still trying to get his writings published. still, to no avail. if that's difficult, the marriage of his parents continues to confuse him. it was this and that, this partner and that.

the Lost Diaries of Adrian Mole was set back before the time he was arrested for organising a protest to protect mohammed; his friend. and the diary is for the duration between 1999-2001. its a lot of emotion to see him standing up for glenn; his son, as well as fighting a losing battle.

'thanks, girl,' she's still smiling when i type these words. nothing beats a very good book, in my case at least. i love it.

she needs a break today. and she's going out for a while. not for long, just a couple of hours. her legs are tied with an avalanche of work.

or maybe she'd just stay at home. maybe take a peek in MPH. or not. she's not even sure.

 Kapasitor Edisi Raya: Menanti Kepulangan Apun

' Hoh? bahagian satu?' itu kata-kata kucing tersebut slps di alih bahasa

 

Hari ini dia ingin pulang ke tanah malaya. langkahnya yakin dan laju meninggalkan jurugambar yang tidak sempat mengejar kerana beliau memakai wedges maka takut terpelecok. heee

  

fikiran beliau melayang mengingatkan kampung halaman dan rakan taulan

  

terkenang semasa kecil, kenangan bersama keluarga membeli tiket komuter. oke maaf tiada gamba lama maka terimalah ini dan diam-diam saja

  

 rakan menanti dengan penuh sabar sampai mulut herot-herot

 

yang ini pula kebosanan maka mengambil gamba sendiri

  

safina sabar menunggu, begitu juga duku yang santai tidak seperti jo siap bersampin (padahal kasut putih tu kasut apun)

  

kau kenape saf? tenang je macam nia. selamba

  

cubaan menghilangkan kebosanan menanti apun yang akan sampai dari negara matahari terbit

  

 ya, selagi ada masa dan selagi memory card belum penuh

  

kelihatan itu syuhada memegang telefon. mungkinkah signal dari apun yang ingin menyatakan beliau sudah tiba

   

 satu-persatu keretapi lalu singgah di stesen, bayang apun masih tiada

  

mereka tua dimakan waktu (padahal satu je tren)

  

 apun sudah tiba dan itu lintas-langsung dari safina17

  

apun menyembunyikan kesyahduan disambut mesra oleh rakan-taulan

  

senyumnya makin lebar apabila bertemu caha

  

maaf kerana terpaksa mengecewakan anda. kita bertemu lagi. ta~

OK, don't kill me. the pictures are taken after after we have eaten. so tired after the pictures we took in KTM

star of the day. dhamia is it?

dayya and syud berebut star

ok yg pakai topi belakang tu pak tam, tepi die teratak. baju hitam putih kesuma, sebelah kiri itu NJay, yg pakai tudung pink tu tuan punye kamera, sebelah kanan tuan-punye-kamera (apsal panjang sgt), safina17. egyptian sebelah kiri tu tatau sape. (jgn pukol jo)
oh btw i was supposed to place this pic at the end of the entry but too lazy to move it. thi hi hi

apun was playing host. maybe. ouh he's the one wearing the black t-shirt
ape bende la lagi tu apun oiape bende la tu apun. the biscuits on the table was courtesy of imran

four tables, reserved for us

this is the thing about amek gamba suke hati. people won't look at your camera

melissa, what are you staring at? look at apun again. sungguh aktif bersosial

kesuma@ alifah dok jauh sgt :(

dayya dayya (the one in green), plis jgn balik dulu

nia and the cake. the cake itu is the sedap (jahanam bahasa)

plis saf. kalo nak cake tu ckp je. jo was looking at imran actually

nia's expression says it all about the cakes and biscuits. ekspresi tidak pedulikan benda lain dlm dunia selain biskut-biskut itu
dah la bawak kek, lps tu amek gamba lagi. terbaik laorg nak amek gamba die ke die nak amek gamba org?

muke kekonon tak bersalah padahal baru je tumpahkan air

jurugamba sedang berfikir mcm mane nak susun budak-budak ni

the white blur was jo actually, nothing scary so no worries

ah there you go. there are other pictures in someone else's cameras too i think . soory, was too tired so had not much energy to push the buttons anymore T_T

i just got back from iftar Kapasitor.net 2009. tonnes of pictures but will have to wait before i will have the strength to upload it. thanks to everyone who came. and those who can't join us, maybe later. see you peeps

I took this when imran was sleeping. He was laughing while he was sleeping, mostly in the early part.

God, i miss Imran so much. mom said that he can now play with the toy i gave him. play as in pull the string to the star and hence make it sing. ouh well, i will try to see that small hero in two weeks time maybe. i just can't get enough of leafing through his pictures. kentut kau leafing. ade ke kau print gambar-gambar tu. oke fine i get it. esok juga pergi print gamba. haha scary nye kau ni ckp seorg diri.

oke sudah. mau minum air sampai kembung

this is me when i was a baby

this is my baby nephew. tak nampak?

what about now? (wajah ebebrapa minit sebelum die muntah di atas saya T_T)

as we happen to look the same, imran and i are going to be best buddies.
darn, i miss him already
and we have the same nose!

p/s: thanks bro for the perfume!

I was out with syud today to Apun's place 9ha lps ni apun ko tak bole komplen sbb ade org siap masak ni tatahan). oke aku tau pedas tapi diam sudah.

pics will be uploaded later (read: two months from now silap-silap T_T)

btw i had a lot of fun and apart from that I got these from sya and syud. OMG tahank you so much

ok i promise i'll envy you pink box

ouh i love the smell. absolutely. dan sgt sayang nak pakai sbb super comel

tau tak syud? saye sgt suke dgn totebag ini (read: lipat dgn baik dan masukkan dlm almari untuk memuatkan barang kamera yg disayangi

ni apun kasi. eh ke aku amek tanpa perasaan malu? :D

bookmark nemo yang comel untukmenanda di mana sudah bace 'Good Man hunting'

thank you so much people. i heart this all XOXOXOXO