I refuse to let a guy disrupt our friendship.

Regardless of how good looking, nice or no matter what.

We have literally grown up together, made it through slopes, mountains and ravines of our friendship. We had fights, I sulked, you tried to console. We started out as a pair of Leo and Capricorn, two big egos, trying to find something in common. The first stages were not easy, I somewhat can recall it. But we're fresh out of school and we are rather 'raw'. As time pass, we changed, seeing more things, feeling more pains and added more silliness. My 'white cloth' must be dreadfully stained right now.

I fell, stumpled, trampled across the paddock by a herd of bulls. You were there and consoled me, enabling me to stand tall. Those were hard times and you did help by making it easier. It has certainly helped me be stronger in a sense of 'facing the music'.

I had to admit it's just pretty recent that we managed to talk freely about things. Two big egos just find it difficult to share things, taking years to just open up. We happen to have our differences and similarities at the same time but opening up, having pillow talks are not that easy. But it was really worth it. Our friendship managed to stand withering challenges.

I have hurt, scarred, saddened you but still you stood for me. You were never afraid of saying what I did was wrong, coming out perfectly honest on what you think. That is what true friends really do, they are honest when you most need it.

And now you are going again. I never expected the news to befall that way yesterday. I must say I was flammmoxed. I know I should have seen it coming but it's the thought of talking to you through the medium of computer that saddens me. It can be said that there's no other person whom I find it comfortable to talk to apart from you.

Again, you dropped a bombshell.
'I want you to know the guy so you won't be bored when I'm somewhere else.'
I never thought you actually thought about me when you talk to the guy. Its like telling a sister that 'I want someone to look out for you when I'm not here'. I was actually hiding the sobs that crept to my throat when you said that. That's why I laughed. Believe me, I was really touched.

But dear, I think he likes you and I absolutely refuse to stand in the way. You won't be gone for very long, 3 years top. And when you come back again, everything might be ready for you and you might want to reconsider things and of course about people. Seeing that he's nice, why not try to make things happen? If you want me to be happy, I do seriously want you to be happy too.

I don't know if it's right to come up and say that he actually like you. I just don't want things to be complicated in time to come. I don't want anyone to become a victim and certainly refuse to let things become be very difficult. And I do not know what to say when you get all pent-up and frustrated when I refused to know him. Hear me say this: things happen for a reason.

If offering a friendship is not good enough, now you are actually finding someone who will become a very good friend to me, sort of taking care of me. But you know what, if that will end up making things complicated, I just want you to know that I'm going to back off because things are going to get ugly in the end if we meddle with matters of the heart.

I will; for your sake, fulfil your wishes but I can't guarantee you that your plan to match us will happen. I just don't. Feelings sometimes can't be changed and if we try to force it and change it, everybody will be affected. I will not be able to look at you and talk to you the way we do. That will certainly kill me inside.

I've seen people backstabbing their friends, forgo friendship for a guy. I've seen the bestest friend on earth being torn apart by a petty matter like this. If you say right now that you are going to back-off if things may develop ... say three years from now, what makes you think I will grab the chance? Let you go? Certainly will not want that to happen.

I may be thinking too much but forgive me if I do because you are a friend, one is very hard to find. I don't wish this to end and losing you for a guy, I think it's too big of a risk.

I've met many people on earth but I can say you left the most significant imprint in my life. Yesterday has just made the fact more obvious.

Don't be mad at him, he's innocent. Feelings cannot be steered into different ways. No one is to blame.

Don't worry about me, that will make me sad. This time it will be more difficult seeing you go but things will be ok. I will certainly miss you but it's not that far. Maybe I can gather enough money to have a stroll with you in that country, who knows? Go, go with a peaceful mind, I will try to make it.

Just put on that smile, your merry, happy smile

This is the second time I've been let down by supposedly-funny men. Ben Stiller's Thropic Thunder is ...confusing.

The story seems to be too heavy, trying to tell about the making of a movie from a book, a star who is starting to lose his fame, the book that happens to be a fake and trying to link it with drug plantation in the Golden Triangle in Southeast Asia. There were too many strings that needs to be tied, leading me to ask 'Is this supposed to be funny?'

It started out quite funny to see the director losing control over the actors and he then tried to film the movie guerilla-style in a jungle in Southeast Asia. Unfortunately, he didn't realise that there really is a guerilla somewhere in the midst of the greens, and he died (accidentally stepped on an old land-mine) not knowing. The actors were perplexed as they didn't know whether they are still filming, apart from not knowing where they are heading. The Ben Stiller decided to go to another direction, leaving the other casts to roam in the greens. Not only the casts lost their way, I also lost my way in the story too.

Stiller was captured near the opium-producing areas, faced the young leader. While the latter part was true, I was unhappy as it mixed the facts. Aren't pandas found in mountainous areas? How come one got lost in SOUTHEAST ASIA jungle? I'm not trying to be an Insufferable Know-It All but if you really want to keep to the fact, why not keep it for the whole movie? Or, were they trying to mock 'Kungfu Panda'?

And then, the low self-esteem among actors. The casts went through few sessions on a supposedly therapy session. Seiously, in a midst of a jungle, when you are lost and being captured by villains?

As a closing, just bear in mind that is the review is telling you its funny, good and etc, they are just trying to be sarcastic.

My rating: an out-of-date chocolate doughnut lying beside a stinking drain. Does that give you enough clue?

P/S: my cili padi is just growing fine. yeayness

Love-and-hate Relationship

..with my mobile phone.

You know what, I long for the days when I don't even care about handphones. When I have to scribble my friends' numbers on notebooks, notepads, papers and on some random recepits. When I have to literally sit beside the telephone, waiting for a telephone call from someone. Or the time when taking pictures are only through the means of camera.

Nowadays, I find myself totally paralysed without mobile phone. It replaces the role of so many things namely; alarm clock, radio, camera, notepad, diary and even my mom (to remind me when to call my aunties and uncles). I used to have this really traditional, basic handphone and I was paralysed when I lost it, quite a few times honestly. I can't remember the numbers and some of the messages are important ones. I have to wait for a few days for uni to start so I can get my bestfriends' numbers.

With mobile phones, I not only have to take precaution for my purses, bags and other stuff that looks unimportant to others but so bloody important to me but I have to make sure that I don't lost my phone. My budget, life, source of communication, source of entertainment, diary and my memories are in it (finally scrapped money to buy one with a camera). I even find myself stupidly looking for my handphone to check the time when I have a watch!

The dilemma doesn't end there. This marvellous technology actually connects us to people; be it our relatives, friends, stalkers, serial killers and porn-lovers so we are constantly in danger of having our privacy being eroded into, almost continuously. A girlfriend called up when you were trying to take a nap, to cry about her dead fish (unfortunate, but sleep is a vital body cycle). Or some telemarketing people trying to offer you some insurance products (good, but if wrongly put, can result to 'Waste my time'). So you see, as much as some people (points to myself) will like to just off the phone, one is afraid of having to lose some really important news like deaths or something. See? Dilemma.

Speaking of which, yes we do understand that mobile phones can actually interrupt the working of medical devices but the visitors maybe cannot switch off their phones because they are waiting for another call, maybe another victim in another hospital. Dilemma again.

The ringtones. Sometimes its terrible. I have this weird ability to shut the ringtone totally out of my head, resulting in several miscalls at a time. I have to resort to the loudest song that I can get to make sure I hear phone calls. I have days where I let George Michael singing Careless Whispers in my drawers. And since I have changed my tone to I'm Yours, the office is a little bit quieter when someone calls me and I went to the toilet (there's this one time my colleagues sang along to L.O.V.E from Michael Buble as I was not at my desk. It was on the loudest tone).

I just have weird habits. Sometimes I want to be left alone but cannot refrain from looking at the phone. I cannot lower the tone because I won't hear it. And I actually hate being dependent (classic Leo).

Well, I'm totally torn. Loud tones can result in dusturbance in the office. Putting it in drawers or slower tones will result in me not picking up phone calls (they can be really important). I just changed my tone to a slower one. Should I use Four to the Floor as my ring tone?

I always have weird dreams. Awfully weird dreams. I always dream of still being in Uni. I have repeatedly dream of being in school. It seems that I never grow out of it.

When I was younger, I usually dream of being left behind, especially when I was about to travel or camp. I will be dreaming that I have not finished packing and the bus just left me, in front of my eyes with my things scattered around me. Everything was there, each one of it. It's just was not packed into the bag.

In university, I always dream of not attending examinations (it's not a secret that I ...err.. don't really mind ditching classes). I woke up having panic attacks and being paranoid of forgetting to set the right time. Silly silly me. But it was really traumatic. I end up dreaming the guards lectured me into tears for coming an hour late, the lecturer letting me in with me not having pens and all.

There were times when I dreamt of reading the slides in my sleep. Some of them are really notes that I read before sleeping and some are crap. And now that I'm working, I dreamt of having to extend my studies because of so many reasons like I forgot to take this course, I didn't take this exam and one time, I dreamt of being barred. I always made sure I attend 75% of the classes. I have to admit that I'm no angel.

I don't dream about my current work. I dreamt of being scold by my previous employer, being late in my previous job but never recent. And I remembered this story of me dating Jared Padalecki. I almost don't want to wake up.

Silly me.

Sometimes, my dreams are so vivid, I practically can remember everything. I still remember a dream I had in 2006, before I went for practical. Someone came to our home, to take me as a wife. I don't know him, I can't remember his name but I definitely can remember his features. He drove a grey Kelisa, have quite fair skin, not big built and have short straight hair. But the dream was just a dream,despite of it being extremely vivid. Did I mentioned he was an engineer? Ha ha

Dreams don't come true but I believe ambitions do. I take dreams as a mere entertainment, even as a warning (more than 6 years ago, I dreamt of being pregnant with a child outside of wedlock. Yikes!). But I'm yet to get inspiration from dreams.

It's late and I have to go. To get ready to bed, waiting for the next dream to come.

Day by day
I stood by my place
Looking at you
Entering, nearly invading my personal space.

Those puppy eyes
Charismatic posture
And professional smile.

How I long for you to look my way
Not to talk about toasts, coffees and cakes
But to create small talks
To ask me if 'Everything's ok?'

How I long to talk to you about your day
Not the weather today
Or the one for tomorrow.

How I long for you to call me
Not to place another order or ask for some sugar
But to look into my eyes and talk about many nothings
Nothing important whatsoever.

But the fact stays
I am just the waitress
No; I'm your waitress.

I can recall your favorite food in my sleep
How you liked your coffee
Even how your eyes crinkled
I bet you don't have a clue.

We exchanged glances
Hellos and bye-byes
Not numbers, addresses
I don't even have to ask why.

Special as it may
I'm just the one bringing you coffees and delicacies
Your waitress who really misses you
And waiting for a miracle
For you to look her way
In a totally different light.

I nearly forgot the buffet today but managed to get just the right attire to 'fill the stomach to the capacity'. Unfortunately, I was only able to eat just a small portion of the food. I mean, compared to other people. Luckily I chose all the expensive ones. That's the whole point of going to buffets right?

No rice or kuey teow, I just go for things I usually don't get on a daily basis. So, it was all stuffing squid, prawns and all sort of things into the mouth. No beef because then I will have indigestion problem.

But I polished three bowls of ice-cream, my happiness. But still, there's an empty space somewhere near the heart. Maybe it's just a passing phase. Hate, hateful

I was flabbergasted when somebody said 'Let's watch House Bunny.' OK, so I judged a book by it's cover.

I totally hate the first 30 minutes; I just hate a character portrayed to be so bimbo. But still, as I paid for the ticket, all I can do is to just watch it.

Shelley was an orphan and she lived in the Bunny mansion. She was kicked out of the mansion on her 27th birthday, due to jealousy. Without the owner's knowledge, she ventured out of the mansion, trying to find and build her new life.

She landed into a sorority house, Zeta and turned the girls' life around. Here again, we can see that popular means power. And Zeta tried to fight for their house with Shelley's help.

Although she was a Playboy Bunny, one can say that she is not all glitter but she also had brains. Soon, she changed Zeta from zero to popular. And she found herself in love with a guy who:
-doesn't mind girls with brains
-doesn't mind unpopular girls

All her life, all that Shelley knows was guys love grils with beauty nil brains. She played all the rules in the book of being hard-to-get, even saying "I'm late for another date", which led to disaster.

Then, she turned to be a guy most alert of international news, talking about South Korea and stuff. She even wore a thick pair of glasses to impress the guy but to no avail.

She felt that she have failed miserably and received a phone call from Hef, the mansion's owner.

And she was put into a dilemma again.

It is kind of funny actually. And I realize now that no matter although the person appears to be a bimbo, it doesn't mean that they are dumb. There's something beneath the whole shine and style. There's intelligence yet to be discovered.

On a different note:

Felt serene and happy with the decision I made and I guess that what my friend said was true. You need to rest to prevent being burnt out. Enjoy what you do and when you feel burdened. Take a step back and relax. I'm taking a step back and relax. I'm planning for a trip (which I know will not happen until early 2009. musim hujan) and also looking for places to study language. Still can't decide what to learn and just hope that my brain is not rusty yet or I'll end up paying for things that I won't benefit from.

So, I'm basically looking forward for what is there to come. I had my plans worked out and will so hope I will be able to achieve it. Ameen

if there's one thing that I should realize by now is the fact that not everything is within my reach. There's a limit to everything and certainly wanting to commit to everything is not the right thing.

I'm releasing some of my responsibilities in Kapasitor. I have to, seriously. I kow that it will be much burden for me and I just want to take a break, before I reach my breaking point. No not going insane or anything. I'm just worried of being too tired. I wish to be focused on the website (although I still haven't gotten the chance), not really on the management or anything.

Let's just see if the coming months will see me in a better position. I'm going to go for my dreams this time and seriously will be thinking to go for a holiday or something of the sort.

It's Saturday. I should be watching TV. And I just got Shrek, the complete collection. yey!

Let me bore you with the definition for recession. It defines as the slowing economy, which is particularly significant in terms of employment, GDP, wholesale-retail sales and real income, for several months. For your information, Singapore's GDP has declined for several quarters; hence it slipped into recession. Malaysia, however, has not gotten into it but let's not be to sunny and positive: it's a global thingy and no one can be sure it is going to be safe. How's that for reality check huh?

Talking to a colleague, it seems that we are still not experiencing recession so this is the best time to start investing in foreign currency and of course, gold. It may or may not be very rewrading but that is exactly the thing with investing, it's pretty unsure stuff. We can never pinpoint how much Australian dollar (AUD) is going to increase in say two-years time or is US dollar going to gain its strength.

If you are planning to go to South Korea in say 2 years time, it may be a good choice to start saving in Dong. Same goes with AUD, it went to a record high some time ago butit is looking pretty cheap these days (approximately 2.4). Those with more money will try to go for USD and of course, nobody can say it is going to be the best choice. That is the thing with investment, many people will speculate but will it happen? Who knows?

Then again, it is the best time to invest. Especially those with extra money and intend to do so and has been eyeing the market.

It is going to be a difficult time, God knows whether we will experience it and how long it will happen (The longest ever recession in the 20th century was from August 1929 - September 1939, known as the Great Depression). The best thing to do is to try to save as much as possible, be it in your bank, cutting the times you spent in the posh outlets, having fast food or whatever. Saving your change is a start, seriously.

Speaking from experience, it is actually good and beneficial to just dump your lose change in your tabung. You will be surprised how much you can save through this one tiny little act. It may be a big chore at first but as time goes, it will be an obligation. Try it and you may even move to committing the usual '10%-of-the-salary-fgoes-into-savings' rule. It only needs a start and seriously, it's never too late to start or too soon.

Just that, one has to look at investment in the long run rather than as a short-term thingy. Patience and perseverence is the key. Look out from who you ask the advise from and any decisions that you make, is entirely your responsibility.

It's 10.30 pm, on a Saturday night, Syawal. You were sitting at home indulging on the TV shows that you missed while going beraya/ had to see those coming to your house. Your brother/ father/ mother/ auntie/ uncle were out, living you with a 13-year old kid at home. He was hooked on the computer and you were watching Tv with a whole plate of kerepek. Suddenly, the lights went off. So does the computer, fridge, fan and every electrical item. What would you do?

1. Instantly get on the phone while lighting the candles?
2. Go to the neighbour's house and ask for candles?
3. Go to the neighbour's house and beraya?
4. Scream for the kid and start asking him to fan you (Panas wo!)
5. Get creative and start lighting candles like you are in some sort of a castle?
4. Play with the shadows?
5. Play with the candles?
6. Decided that you need a haircut and trim your hair?
7. Take a bath again, as a precaution as you won't know how long the blackout will last and you don't want to be feeling hot?
8. Don't care for the world and sleep? (kes kulit biawak, tak lut gigitan nyamuk)
9. Curse a bit and call TNB?
10. Curse a bit and curse the other people who didn't report to TNB?
11. Get your mum's telekung. Lock the door, invite the kid for a prank to the girls in your neighbourhood?
12. Cry your heart out because you'll be facing an examination on Monday ? (Good luck to those taking the exams!)
13. Force yourself to read the book using candles?
14. Call McDonalds and decide today is the perfect day to have a picnic at night. Giving the literal mining to 'eating out'?
15. Start gathering your friends and unveil ghost-story telling night?
16. Flag a taxi and flee somewhere else? (and risked being skinned alive for leaving the home at times like that)

I am curious to know.

On a second note, Mum laughed her heart out when I told her I started planting cili padi. It was my cousin's and my project. I need to do something and waiting for a decision to make is just so killing me. So, I decided to try and see if I got green hands. Having my own garden will be great huh? But right now, I want to try vegetables. See if I can upgrade it to tanaman hidroponik.

The result can be seen in 10-15 days. Let's just hope the bloody kitten that is so naughty he created a mess in the kitchen when it played with the kuih bahulu will not be jumping up and down on the soil.

Have a nice day. I'm going to take a nap.

Do you:
1. run after the buses every single day?
2. window shop at least 30 minutes three times a week?
3. brisk walking 3 times a week, an hour per session?
4. walking fast from point A to point B daily?
5. get off one station to walk 15 minutes to your destination?
6. get on a 1 mile per hour treadmill at work?
5. make sure to go to the toilet the other floors instead of your own?
6. spend a few minutes daily to follow the one you admire (stalk someone)?
7. pace up and down the workplace while talking on the phone to ensure blood circulation?
8. cycle to work or to the nearest LRT station?
9. chase after your cats?
10. do pilates, yoga, dances or tai-chi at the comfort of your own home?
11. dance?
12. do just senaman mulut?
13. enrol at martial art classes?
14. do senaman kuak lentang at any given opportunity?
15. make sure that you allocate a specific time every week for exercising like walking, gardening, swimming, playing tennis etc
16. "Exercise? Is that a new brand of shoes?"

So, what do you guys do? I'm just curious, especially for those working because usually there's no time to exercise. And also looking for options to work out. I think it's to dangerous to spend an hour strolling near my place. Exclude gym membership, please. Singapore has just gotten into recession and it is considered as the one economy in Asia-Pacific to be safe from global economic crisis. It shows that we have to be extremely cautious.

I always believe that there will be no big enough room that can fit two egos. It doesn't matter how big or small. And I for one knows that yes, I unfortunately fall into the category of having a big ego. It's not like I feel superior to anything or anyone but I believe that we have to stand up for what we belief in or we will be nothing. We have nothing without our beliefs.

My friend and I, we call ourselves arrogant people. In a joking way of course but we do know that we are arrogant. To a certain extent.

I don't see ego as a bad or good thing. For me, ego is just there to be used either for your own benefit or other people. It's important to put our ego upfront when we attend interviews, participate in a competition or even posting anything on kapasitor. Be ready to be condemned or complimented, receive opposing views or giving a few free lectures. Without ego, I think no one will be able to win anything or achieve anything. Of course, that coming from a Leo will sound ARROGANT.

And ego making someone as a not suitable partner? Well, I believe it to boil down to tolerance. God do not just create us to live with ourselves. To mingle with people, making friends and to socialize require a certain skill called tolerance. There are ways to handle people and the most easiest will be applying the ying and yang concept. Put out fire with water, not with a bigger fire. To tackle someone with a big ego, ask probing questions, which will make them think. I'm talking from experiences when friends confront me using questions. When I was angry.

I just so happen to be thinking about this thing after talking with a friend. Apparently, I'm the type of person who needs to be a leader constantly (is it wrong to know what I want?), have jumbo-sized ego (is it wrong to know you have certain abilities?). It's just that sometimes when I go forward saying suggestions and pointing to places where I want to go, people don't say anything after I asked them questions. You know, I ask questions to receive answers, not 'up to you'.

I seriously cannot do anything about it, I'm just being me. I just want to hold on to my opinion and please do clarify anything if you think what I believe in is wrong. I'm open to discussions but I won't hesitate to ask questions if the arguments are not strong.

But just so you know, I'm willing to learn new things, have healthy discussions. Just don't stop talking to me just because of my ego. It's not that I don't know the word tolerance. I honestly do.

To the friend, thank you for being frank with me. Nothing beats honesty.

I officialy hate cats, all kinds. I used to hate cats and love kittens but 'that ship has sailed'. I'm now officialy the one in charge to buy cat's food. Grandma will sometimes scream just before I put on my shoes to work.

'Don't forget to buy the cat's food. They finished it.' Darn. Do I look like I have nothing else important to do? Like I care if they have to starve. Actually, I kind of do. Then, they will run amok in the house. More trouble.

Honestly, they use to eat rice with kepala ikan bilis. They use to scramble for chicken meat (the ones we can't finish). What happened now? They refuse to eat anything else except real cat food. There's not one but around three of them. I just feel like putting them in a sack and throw them away.

But that's the thing. They are cute and people seem to be unable to throw them away on the basis that 'they are toilet-trained'. Hello...am I not toilet-trained?

I know. I complaint a lot. But I really hate the idea of rushing from the office to the store just so I won't miss the bloody bus-yang-tak-rapid-langsung-tu. Then having to queue for about 10 minutes to pay for the food which by the way, cause nearly RM20. Yeah yeah, I'm Haji Bakhil.

Don't get me wrong. I'm ok if the cat does not belong to us or doesn't live with us. It's just that taking care of them, buying food and stuff, I don't see myself being that committed.

On another note, I'm just like constantly hungry today. Colleague said 'maybe it's a sign for you to be fat.' O'o..that spells trouble. Maybe it's me being nervous. I'm just bloody nervous on the idea of seeing someone. A particular someone. I nearly forgot to breathe a few times. And my feet and hands are cold. Or was it the air-condition.

OK, times up! Let's go home and stuff myself with kerepek! Chop chop!

P/S: I have more duit raya this year. Last year I got RM10, this year I got RM20, which I spend watching movies with my cousins. Ha-di-ha

No kissing scene shown in the cinema! I love it. Except for one peek on the cheek on the very last scene.

It started off with a scene in a place that looks like Afghanistan. Apparently, shooting innocent people can only bring trouble to the US. It's a story where people's lives were compromised as we strive to be too dependent on computers. The so-called intelligent computer then started its killing spree, sending Jeremy (Shia LaBeouf) on a run. The computer itself killed his twin brother and sending his life and another person's life into a living hell.

It was completely bewildering to have someone tailing you wherever you go without failing to keep track on what you do. Nothing is in our hands anymore and that kind of freak me out. Well, who can take it if the LRT actually turns back to the previous station when an instructed was disobeyed?

I would say I seriously like the car chasing scenes in this movie. Maybe that's because I don't really watch movies.

Shia in this movie don't really have that much dialogue. From a kid in Even Stevens, he is now a versatile star. I am actually a bit concerned him being trapped in the character of Transformers. But he didn't.

And me doing this review means that I have nothing to do during Raya. Ha ha ha, what a loser.

On another note, some things have been cleared, giving me the opportunity to move on. It was definitely hard for me to reveal what I want, especially when it comes to relationship. And it becomes harder when someone said 'Aku dah lama perasan kau perlukan seseorang tapi ko terlalu keras untuk mengaku' (well, along the lines). It wasn't easy but as I'm ready, what's there to wait anymore.

But thanks anyways for laughing at me for nearly 30 seconds. The uncontrollable laughter that will certainly make me stab you in the chest if we were not talking on the phone.

No wonder I have this good feeling in my chest all week long. I do lobe surprises so. Hence, surprise me.

P/S: I swear Matthew Gray Gubler has puppy eyes that is oh-so-cute. ha ha

French Vanilla

You are not
One of those French Vanilla experiences
You'll never be
One of those experiences.

One lunch
You are not boring
Two dinners
You still appear charming
Three teas
You are seriously amusing
Fourth shopping session
You made me laugh till me face turned crimson.

Fifth meeting..
Sixth.

We have this special thing
And it never feels bland
Not like French Vanilla effect
When its excitement flee
When you had the sixth try.

We had our shares of laughter
Merriment and cries
Like bread and butter
Sugar and spice.

Let's keep it like this
Like perfect puzzle pieces
Take small tiny steps
Reaching high up to the skies.