Love-and-hate Relationship

..with my mobile phone.

You know what, I long for the days when I don't even care about handphones. When I have to scribble my friends' numbers on notebooks, notepads, papers and on some random recepits. When I have to literally sit beside the telephone, waiting for a telephone call from someone. Or the time when taking pictures are only through the means of camera.

Nowadays, I find myself totally paralysed without mobile phone. It replaces the role of so many things namely; alarm clock, radio, camera, notepad, diary and even my mom (to remind me when to call my aunties and uncles). I used to have this really traditional, basic handphone and I was paralysed when I lost it, quite a few times honestly. I can't remember the numbers and some of the messages are important ones. I have to wait for a few days for uni to start so I can get my bestfriends' numbers.

With mobile phones, I not only have to take precaution for my purses, bags and other stuff that looks unimportant to others but so bloody important to me but I have to make sure that I don't lost my phone. My budget, life, source of communication, source of entertainment, diary and my memories are in it (finally scrapped money to buy one with a camera). I even find myself stupidly looking for my handphone to check the time when I have a watch!

The dilemma doesn't end there. This marvellous technology actually connects us to people; be it our relatives, friends, stalkers, serial killers and porn-lovers so we are constantly in danger of having our privacy being eroded into, almost continuously. A girlfriend called up when you were trying to take a nap, to cry about her dead fish (unfortunate, but sleep is a vital body cycle). Or some telemarketing people trying to offer you some insurance products (good, but if wrongly put, can result to 'Waste my time'). So you see, as much as some people (points to myself) will like to just off the phone, one is afraid of having to lose some really important news like deaths or something. See? Dilemma.

Speaking of which, yes we do understand that mobile phones can actually interrupt the working of medical devices but the visitors maybe cannot switch off their phones because they are waiting for another call, maybe another victim in another hospital. Dilemma again.

The ringtones. Sometimes its terrible. I have this weird ability to shut the ringtone totally out of my head, resulting in several miscalls at a time. I have to resort to the loudest song that I can get to make sure I hear phone calls. I have days where I let George Michael singing Careless Whispers in my drawers. And since I have changed my tone to I'm Yours, the office is a little bit quieter when someone calls me and I went to the toilet (there's this one time my colleagues sang along to L.O.V.E from Michael Buble as I was not at my desk. It was on the loudest tone).

I just have weird habits. Sometimes I want to be left alone but cannot refrain from looking at the phone. I cannot lower the tone because I won't hear it. And I actually hate being dependent (classic Leo).

Well, I'm totally torn. Loud tones can result in dusturbance in the office. Putting it in drawers or slower tones will result in me not picking up phone calls (they can be really important). I just changed my tone to a slower one. Should I use Four to the Floor as my ring tone?