1. I hate real flowers but I'm so in love with bunga plastic. I can really shop (with a passion) for bunga plastic. I actually researched three places for bunga plastic, ending up with wobbly knees somewhere in PJ. See? I can't even remember where I last shopped.

2. The house looks like a florist now. We (my auntie and I) are so honestly proud of ourselves.

3. My cousins happen to hate mercun. Seriously, where's your semangat raya?

4. More kids will love me this year. Well, I know why. But sorry, I think I will sleep on my money.

5. Does buying a new mug for your bestfriend can be considered as a part of Raya celebration? I feel like buying one. I know she'll love it. But will it be appropriate when her mom is hospitalized? What kind of dilemma is this?

6. I'm still at the office at 1pm, 30 September 2008. Reason being of still working half day; seriously don't want to tolong masak rendang in the morning. My cousins will say 'Orang nak pegi toilet kejap' and they will leave me covered in ashes for the next four hours. Let them survive this morning.

7. I have flu, my throat feels like sandpaper. And my forehead is burning. how am I going to scan for eligible bachelors tomorrow? *cries

8. One pesan ketupat, another rendang, another lemang. Do I look like a supplier to you guys?

9. I received one kad raya this year. I gave up posting any cards because it got lost somewhere last year. And the year before that. All of them. I will deliver by hand if I need to.

10. I'm wearing baggy baju kurung this year. Last minute shopping. Serves me right.

Grey's Anatomy, Supernatural and Criminal Minds are the top in my favourite drama series list. Week by week, I will be staying up way late just to check out what's new with them (missing Jared Padalecki in Supernatural? Never. Of course, gawk at Matthew Gray Gubler in Criminal Minds. Surprisingly, I actually like Ellen Pompeo in Grey's Anatomy).

But it so happens that I really don't have to wait until the weekend for drama. Drama happens every single day of my life. For an easy example, I have a cast of actors and actresses re-enacting the mobile 018 advertisements. They will be saying 'Kenape?' in that small voice at the right places and at the right time. And we will of course, laugh heartily.

Call us dreamer but we don't mind. My friend and I will be talking long into the night on our future plans. We have this long strategy of securing a safe future by securing geeky, ugly, old guy from some rich country (points...can't reveal). And we will strategize on how to invest his money to reap benefit (of course, at the end of the day I just want to faint at the idea).

If that's not enough, I can always wait for a show when we go out shopping. Especially during haggling. I just station myself beside her and watch. Something interesting will definitely come up.

I don't have to tell on how my colleagues punched, patted, pasted some advertisements on the back of Mr Moose at the office. Nor do I have to tell about the conversations on 'ini kuih dorayaki keras bersaiz hobit' (to describe a small biscuit in the shape of dorayaki and really small'. Nor do I have to tell about the funny emails I receive daily. I can just say that my life will never be dull, regardless of how hard I try to make it unbearable.

We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things

I swear I was about to type something beneficial when my mind went blank as I caught a whiff of really delicious smell. Kurus puasa!

Anyways, I'm just writing here to complain about Jason Mraz. Ouh yeah, Mr A-Z, Geek in The Pink, whoever you wish to call him. His latest track made me want to cry. Of course it's sweet but it want to make me cry as I can feel myself dying slowly. I find myself being puzzled because of the weepiness of the song. I tried listening to 'Lucky' in the office and I had to be dragged to the restroom to wash my face. Kidding but the former part is true. The sleeoy part I mean.

It is undeniable that songs like If It Kills Me, Beautiful Mess, Lucky and I'm Yours have pretty good words to it but I have to say I can only vote for I'm Yours. Someday, when I get terribly emotional, for whatever reason in the whole world, maybe I will resort to other the other three songs. Although I have to say If It Kills Me actually is pretty fast.

Butterfly is very catchy and very chic, I very like. But then again, there were meanings that I am not sure whether it should be interpreted or not so I'm just going to say I like. No further comment. But I do actually like the combination between Mr A-Z with James Morrison.

Well, if slow, love songs are your cup of tea, this is for you. I would definitely listen to it with the sea in the background. Not to say that it isn't good. It's just that Jason Mraz offered me smaller choice of songs. Sedeh!

P/S: I swear Jared Tristan Padalecki gets more good looking every single week!

The ride is nearing the end. And I never thought making such a simple decision will cause punding headaches, sleepless nights and long hours of discussing what to do. At this age, I thought matters related to the heart will be so much more easier. How wrong was one to assume that.

Enjoying the ride is another thing. Making the decision is just as important. Every game in the world will come to an end eventually. That, no one will be able to deny. And in games, there will be losers and winners. Honestly, I don't wish to be the loser because if I lose this time, it is going to cost a lot. Trust, friendship and well, lots of things.

I've been happy these few days. Even giggly, to a point. One said this is a phase, it will grow to another level. Me? I still have no idea on what to do. Yes, I am that hopeless somehow.

I hope I can still see the signs. Apparently, I was blind to someone else's sign, resulting me being dropped out of the list. I thought that was brotherly love. how was I to know?

But seriously, I am happy. And I'm going to wait. Bak kate Jason Mraz, time is everything

Who would have thought, Lehman Bro, the biggest investment bank in the US, would have filed for bankruptcy. It seems however, that the 158-year financial behemoth became the victim of the financial turmoil.

Huge funds, especially in the Middle East are 'literally' sitting on their cash and prefer to make investments closer to home including East Asia and India. Everyone is watchful on their money.

The filing was named as the largest ever filing ever made and of course, feel free to Google on Chapter 11 (because I'm lazy to do so, thanks!). And the move was due to some issues due to mortgage and real estate.

Analysts say that this is not the time to suffuse money into financial institutions. This may be a great time to make investments as those made by Temasek and Government of Singapore Investment Corporation. But yeah, everybody is watchful over the world economy right now.


Hence, the dilemma of the day: Should I or shouldn't I buy a pair of shoes, which I have stared at for months? It's selling for half price. I don't really need it but I can wear it to office on Fridays. Should I or shouldn't I just follow Qatar Investment Authority (QIA) advisor's words to 'sit on my money'?

Making decisions are definitely not my strongest point.

On another note, Kapasitor.net has been shortlisted. Check this out:

Congratulations again for being shortlisted in our prestigious Award!

We are pleased to inform you, that the MSC Malaysia APICTA 2008 Awards Presentation Ceremony will be held on Wednesday, 15 October 2008 at Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre .The patron of MSC Malaysia APICTA, YAB Dato’ Sri Abdullah Hj Ahmad Badawi himself will be gracing this auspicious occasion as the Guest of Honour together with the Minister of Science, Technology and Innovation, YBhg Dato’ Dr. Maximus Johnity Ongkili.

The results of the Awards will only be announced during the Awards Presentation Ceremony.

Alhamdulillah.

Somehow or rather, I find myself playing with fire. Like continuously. Like I know I shouldn't be doing this, but I did it anyways. A very dear friend told me once,' the harder you try not to like it, the more attractive it will be to you.'

Somehow, I know what is happening now is not going to lead anywhere. I'm somehow fully aware of it. But the attraction is too strong, been keeping it too long I guess.

Someday it will kill me, I know. But I just can't help. Especially so when the truth came out that the other party wasn't as ignorant as I thought will be.

Hihi. Now I have a stronger reason to ...

And my smile will be wider as the day crawls. Yes, I know I'm speaking in codes. Speaking of which, I think my brain just became mushed up due to all the codings. I find myself knowing nil about coding. This is crazy. My head literally pounded trying to comprehend 'Broadband fibre equipment'.

You lazy bum. Go look through the notes. I'm off to my lovely home. Have a smashing buka puasa

It has been nearly a week. A week of having fever. I only worked for like two days last week. It was the most devilish fever I ever had. And this clearly got me into thinking that this is a sign from God that I'm to marry someone residing in the tropics, not someone living in the high mountains of Kathmandu. Eh?

So, what am I going to ramble about? About viral infection of course. You guys should see the look on the Dr's face when she told me that I had viral infection. Like it settled every single thing in the world. Truth is doc, I don't even know what it means. Every time a person send me an SMS I will reply, 'I have viral infection. Whatever that means.' And proceeded to a helpless giggle, guling-guling dengan pijama kesayangan.

But thanks to the advent of Internet, here we are: Infection caused by the presence of a virus in the body. Next time doc, don't forget the laymen term.

I was so worried that I was bed-ridden for so many days. Not really worried because I can watch all the Tv shows in the world but still, I miss cold water to quench my thirst, sleeping directly under the fan and eating cold slices of papaya straight from the fridge. On Sunday evening, I started to see small spots on my arms. I was like...yikes!!! Is this dengue. So, I had to endure 1 and a half hours having a needle .. I think it was two needles; stuck in my hands while waiting for the result. Thank God it was not dengue. Still, I talk with real nasal voice and sore throat. Perfect for a rendition of 'She's in Fashion' by Suede or London Suede. Miahaha!

Having said that, yeah..I do feel quite ok but the ability to project voice has been limited as every time I speak to anyone (including phone calls) caused me to cough incessantly. No chance of fasting either yesterday, today and it looks pretty hopeless for tomorrow. Moi forehead is still hot but that's normal. I always have burning forehead when in reality I actually feel ok.

Maybe you have heard it, maybe you haven't but nevertheless; here's the piece of juicy news: Kapasitor has been shortlisted for MSC - APICTA Awards 2008 Presentation (Best of E-Inclusion & E-Community).

P/S: I was utterly dumbfounded due to certain revelations. Ter shut up more likely. And then the person said 'sukahati'. Now, I don't know what to think as I've been so desperate to deny it all.

Yours truly has been down for fever for quite a few days. This can happen when the weather is so undecided. One minute its pouring rain and another minute its super hot.
Nothing's interesting I guess, except for a missing email address. I searched frantically when I found out that the old server was no where on earth and thus, som very important information went missing. can't be happier than that of course.
Went to MPH warehouse sales and of course, what can you expect. I just went bonkers. Luckily I don;t have credit cards. Imagine LOTR for just 76 bucks. But none came with me so have to settle with few books. But I got the full work of sherlock holmes. well, how happier can you be right?
This is boring. Me typing this feels boring. It's the second day I took MC.
I'm done being boring. See you later aligator