kalau kau sakit, maksudnya kau pernah sihat
kalau kau pernah sedih,  maksudnya kau kenal akan erti gembira
kalau kau kecewa, maksudnya kau pernah meletakkan harapan.

sakit, memang sakit. tapi rasanya lebih elok menangis tiga jam, kemudian jadi seperti biasa.
daripada senyum, sembunyikan rasa dan merana tiga bulan.

tapi tadi imran datang riang, tersenyum buat kusenang jalan terkengkang-kengkang
terus terbang semua kesedihan
siapa sangka, tak sampai 3 jam bersedih
dah ada pengubat.

p/s: rasa macam nak cari kerja part time? cuba di sini

When i first said that I want to go down to Penang, a colleague couldn't understand why i should. When I told her that I had to help out, she was still flammoxed by the idea.

Well, if it wasn't the family who had to do settle the bunga telur and stuff, who are going to do it? So, that's why I'm here.

 'syot terbaik malam ini,' kataku kepada kazen sendiri

The arrival of the people who wants to help out with the bunga telur and all started at around 3pm.The place was full with aunties, having all the bunga telur and stuff. And of course, with kids. Cousin, who is now 15, screamed bloody murder at a bunch of kids running around (running amok more likely) inside and outside the house due to the excitement of a small reunion. She was really tired, just came back from school and was just taking a nap before heading of for tuition. Me? I went straight down to help the people with bunga telur. After a two hour nap that is.

Around 7pm, most of the people helping out (some were neighbours) started going back home. Not before having dinner here first of course. So, it was my cousins and me doing the bunga telur. And believe me, it was more than 400 (some will have to be done tomorrow).

Around 8pm, Makcu came all the way down from KL . I have been longing for a bit of entertainment since 6pm and it was what I got once she set to work. She is a schoolteacher, a headmistress actually and you know how it is like having to make all the decisions. Since evening, the host has been making the decision but now she stepped in, directing this and that. The thing is, host won't given it.

First it was the bunga telur

 

' Isn't the theme orange?' She was eyeing the bunga telur in front of us with suspicion.

Hosts' daughter: ' Ini tema dia bunga telur suka hati mak pak aku' and then laughed.

Host (husband): ' Mak ja. Bukan pak. Pak dia duduk tepi kedai, dok lena tengok mak dia dok tunjuk-tunjuk bunga'

And we had a good laugh about it. We as in my brother and I. Crazy devils.

Then, there was the problem with how many muffins and kuih to put in each bag. Since Makcu is a schoolteacher, we became her colleagues and were asked to co-operate. We were divided into different division.

Division 1: Put the muffin and kuih in plastic bags.

Division 2: Plastic bag will be sealed using a machine that I do not know how to operate. At all.

Division 3: Will now add the sealed plastics into another plastic with bahulu

Division 4: Wrap them all up (my division)

Division 5: Put the wrapped up thing into gift bags

 semua pun macam gila teruja dengan gamba gift bag. haha

Division 6: Put everything in the car and ship it over to another house.

kecederaan diri sendiri tercucuk dawai haha

I'm just glad that we did it the traditional way. Of course, the problem of having to sit down (bersila) from 6 until 11 is not the best experience in the world, I don't regret it at all.

Maybe, we no longer cook food for weddings in big pots anymore but still, I'm glad we still work together for the bunga telur and stuff.

After all, I'm very glad we still do it the old way, with chaos and all.

2 jam setengah sedih
hampir setengah kotak tisu abis
satu cawan hadiah dari dome
bersamaan dengan kegembiraan sepanjang hari

terima kasih

p/s: ini adalah sama sweet dengan iklan digi yang ada lagu hindustan ada kucing menari-nari itu :)

just got back from mak's house. the pinggang is crying with agony, trying to get the owner to fetch professional help due to the pain but noooo...we've got to live with that pinggang because nephew is going to get bigger,so you'd better endure it. and here's the heartbreaker:

just woke up from sleep so that explains the face

  alhamdulillah, i don't take coffee every single day anymore. although the first week was really excruciating, it gets better after awhile. thank you for those who supported me *wipes tears. i can't thank you people enough *blows nose. i can survive unless i'm extremely sleepy. i still can't stomach green tea every single day but I'M NEARLY THERE. 

  life's good, yesterday managed to help someone review a movie on futsal. i really hope it can be of assistance to his futsal magazine and if you are a huge fan of the game, please do not hesitate to sign up. and that includes you cousin, ha tu bajet aku tatau la ko bace tu. amacam smalam keje? oke? hari ni nak belasah baskin robbins tak? mesti kau nak muntah dah tgk eskrem tu. 

  oppss sidetracked. 

  anyways. here's another interesting happening at kapasitor.net. this is the first time the website is going to have an essay writing competition for schools in Keningau, Sabah. in fact, this is the first time kapasitor.net is going to have any type of competition like that. for more update on that, here's the link to read the full story. so pupils in Keningau, wait for the competition because it is coming (i'm messaging the head of the competition but he has not replied yet so brace for it). 

  ah cross-stitching! here we come! 

  eh jap. main game dulu :D

ada eloknye kalau dibeli topeng spiderman utk bekal sebulan
tapi surgical mask pun mcm cool kan? lagipun tgh heboh juga H1N1 2nd wave
tak pun buat sendiri je topeng
kan senang

dang
apsal apsal apsal?

selamat menyambut maal hijrah
semoga permulaan yang fani ni bakal membawa kepada satu perjalanan yang menarik

this has to be the best weekend ever!
i got to meet some friends, catch up with them, celebrate life with them and everything
its just the best

thanks for the free ice-cream
terbaek la cheesecake ice cream itu
i'm not even sorry eating it

dan kamu
saya harap kamu tabah dengan dugaan ini
mungkin sudah sampai masa mereka
kita yang tinggal, marilah sedekahkan al-fatihah untuk mereka

she was rubbing her eyes at 1 am. but still, she had stacks of papers to complete. but heck, it was a good day.she was happy and satisfied.

she was very busy these days. she even forgot to write an entry about The Lost Diaries of Adrian Mole. it was a present from a very very very good friend. a birthday present. she thought it'd be weeks before she managed to finish reading the book from Sue Townsend. How wrong, how very very wrong. she dropped everything and peeled the book from page to page. Adrian Mole never change. He still speaks in the same voice, echoing the loneliness with a touch of snooty-ness that she can barely understand. but heck, it was one hell of a book. she loved humour and nothing can beat dark humour. she lived on it and she realised that most of her collection are about dark humour.

adrian mole is now in his 30's and are left with two young kids. a single father, jobless and still trying to get his writings published. still, to no avail. if that's difficult, the marriage of his parents continues to confuse him. it was this and that, this partner and that.

the Lost Diaries of Adrian Mole was set back before the time he was arrested for organising a protest to protect mohammed; his friend. and the diary is for the duration between 1999-2001. its a lot of emotion to see him standing up for glenn; his son, as well as fighting a losing battle.

'thanks, girl,' she's still smiling when i type these words. nothing beats a very good book, in my case at least. i love it.

she needs a break today. and she's going out for a while. not for long, just a couple of hours. her legs are tied with an avalanche of work.

or maybe she'd just stay at home. maybe take a peek in MPH. or not. she's not even sure.

 Kapasitor Edisi Raya: Menanti Kepulangan Apun

' Hoh? bahagian satu?' itu kata-kata kucing tersebut slps di alih bahasa

 

Hari ini dia ingin pulang ke tanah malaya. langkahnya yakin dan laju meninggalkan jurugambar yang tidak sempat mengejar kerana beliau memakai wedges maka takut terpelecok. heee

  

fikiran beliau melayang mengingatkan kampung halaman dan rakan taulan

  

terkenang semasa kecil, kenangan bersama keluarga membeli tiket komuter. oke maaf tiada gamba lama maka terimalah ini dan diam-diam saja

  

 rakan menanti dengan penuh sabar sampai mulut herot-herot

 

yang ini pula kebosanan maka mengambil gamba sendiri

  

safina sabar menunggu, begitu juga duku yang santai tidak seperti jo siap bersampin (padahal kasut putih tu kasut apun)

  

kau kenape saf? tenang je macam nia. selamba

  

cubaan menghilangkan kebosanan menanti apun yang akan sampai dari negara matahari terbit

  

 ya, selagi ada masa dan selagi memory card belum penuh

  

kelihatan itu syuhada memegang telefon. mungkinkah signal dari apun yang ingin menyatakan beliau sudah tiba

   

 satu-persatu keretapi lalu singgah di stesen, bayang apun masih tiada

  

mereka tua dimakan waktu (padahal satu je tren)

  

 apun sudah tiba dan itu lintas-langsung dari safina17

  

apun menyembunyikan kesyahduan disambut mesra oleh rakan-taulan

  

senyumnya makin lebar apabila bertemu caha

  

maaf kerana terpaksa mengecewakan anda. kita bertemu lagi. ta~

i just got back from iftar Kapasitor.net 2009. tonnes of pictures but will have to wait before i will have the strength to upload it. thanks to everyone who came. and those who can't join us, maybe later. see you peeps

I took this when imran was sleeping. He was laughing while he was sleeping, mostly in the early part.

God, i miss Imran so much. mom said that he can now play with the toy i gave him. play as in pull the string to the star and hence make it sing. ouh well, i will try to see that small hero in two weeks time maybe. i just can't get enough of leafing through his pictures. kentut kau leafing. ade ke kau print gambar-gambar tu. oke fine i get it. esok juga pergi print gamba. haha scary nye kau ni ckp seorg diri.

oke sudah. mau minum air sampai kembung

this is me when i was a baby

this is my baby nephew. tak nampak?

what about now? (wajah ebebrapa minit sebelum die muntah di atas saya T_T)

as we happen to look the same, imran and i are going to be best buddies.
darn, i miss him already
and we have the same nose!

p/s: thanks bro for the perfume!

I was out with syud today to Apun's place 9ha lps ni apun ko tak bole komplen sbb ade org siap masak ni tatahan). oke aku tau pedas tapi diam sudah.

pics will be uploaded later (read: two months from now silap-silap T_T)

btw i had a lot of fun and apart from that I got these from sya and syud. OMG tahank you so much

ok i promise i'll envy you pink box

ouh i love the smell. absolutely. dan sgt sayang nak pakai sbb super comel

tau tak syud? saye sgt suke dgn totebag ini (read: lipat dgn baik dan masukkan dlm almari untuk memuatkan barang kamera yg disayangi

ni apun kasi. eh ke aku amek tanpa perasaan malu? :D

bookmark nemo yang comel untukmenanda di mana sudah bace 'Good Man hunting'

thank you so much people. i heart this all XOXOXOXO

it was my birthday and ade brought me somewhere to eat in order to celebrate my birthday

we went here

ade was checking the menu in chilli's. me? i have no idea what to order or to say

this is me trying to look happy when actually, I have no idea what to say or pick

refillable corn chips!

ouh nyam!

this is our main course

look at her eating. cute huh?

apple juice

and a good one hour later, we are done.

thank you ade!

just a quick update (since i have to wake up early tomorrow. someone wants to belanja dinner)
thank you for all the well wishes and present
i'm thankful to live to this day and surrounded by great people
thank you, thank you and thank you
may God bless you people

another year; another number to the age and maybe, a whole lot wiser
nah kidding
growing old is mandatory but growing up is optional

again
you people make my day
:D

The journey might have started before 24 July 2009, Friday, itself. I was so excited that night that I stayed up quite late, not being able to sleep. We (three of us) were going to Melaka for out first road trip.

In the midst of all the excitement, I managed to pack (after changing bags for nearly three times), and the next morning, was just in time to wake up and made it to the designated meeting place in time. In fact, I was early (which is what I wanted because waiting for the Putra at eight something in the morning can be considered as an achievement because every body needed to go to their offices).

We had McDonald for breakfast because I had these vouchers that offers RM4.50 for a breakfast set. It was cheap and I was trying to budget so it was just perfect. And then we head to Cyberjaya (after quarreling about the importance of heading to Cyberjaya since we need to arrive in Melaka at about noon). Got ready and sang along with Michael buble and the Carpenters and head to Melaka. Was still giddy at the time.

We had a foundation for this trip called Build Me Up, Buttercup (I may have accidentally picked the name, I can’t really be sure). This will serve as a fund to cover the expenses there like toll, petrol, accommodation and outings. It made our lives easier as we all pitch in RM250 per person. And starting from Ayer Keroh toll, Anne started keeping tab of the expenses.

We arrived at about 1245pm on Friday and we had to kill time before checking in into Fenix Inn (RM 158 for Deluxe room (kenape kene buat promosi kat sini)) so we decided to go to the zoo. I may have meddled in the decision to head to that place anyways.

It was during Friday prayers so that may explain why the zoo was quite deserted. It may have been better than the Zoo Negara in Klang Valley that I remembered. The zoo had quite a number of animals and we can see the name of sponsors for the animals. I ws excited because we were able to take pictures with sun bears that are just so adorable and cuddly that I feeli like jumping into the cage and hug them one-by-one.

Ceria sungguh wajah kanak-kanak pegi zoo

' Welcome!' says Anne (says ke? sengih je kot)


Trying to become Steve Irwin : 'Hey, look! Buaya!'

Tak paham kenapa muka mesti begitu teruja.


i was actually tring to "interframe" into the picture but to no avail


Ini Dekan oke. Nama die sgt macho kan? (we only got the picture of the name. not the animal itself :D

No, don't ask me. I don't know whether I was trying to take Zill's picture or the Cabybara's

I was wearing slippers made from cow skin. And we took the pictures beside bull's cage. I was afraid the bull can smell the cow skin I'm wearing and mengamuk (like cows and bulls are related 'kenapa kau pakai sedara aku?' punya mengamuk' got it? no? good) Hence the kaki patah.

Look at those goatee's. Macho gile oke

We were supposed to take the pictures of the giraffes but it was too hazy

These sun bears are sponsored by A&W's. Good choice

AAACCKKTT! Public harassment (but actually it was my fault. the sign said that the horse might bite. but luckily it didn't got a chuck out of my back (though that can reduce my weight))

Wajah penuh impression. Tetapi kenape Zila mcm co-ol saje?

' Welcome to my house people. Ha masuk-masuk. Kasut tu celup dlm air depan pintu pagar ni ye. Jangan lupe'
Ade org ckp the name of this animal is Powertek Berhad. It's actually sponsored by the company

Posing jgn tak posing

' Hi, tengah buat ape?'

This is the star of GI Joe's star: King Cobra
Expression : Priceless
Ouh no. I was not trying to commit suicide

i was too engrossed with this sight. This should be the perfect picture for the banner instructing everyone to queue up when they want to go on a train

'jika kura-kura boleh beratur, kenapa anda tidak?

Zila must have said something really funny which I clearly can't remember


There were only two elephants by then. Mighty elephants. I like elephants but these have chains on their legs. Pity them :(

Arrived at our place for the night. Actually we are about to go out again

to be continued