Finally, I'm uploading raya pictures. Brace yourself for disappointment though. Heh 

ye kawan-kawan. hari raya sudah tiba. ini sebenarnya nasi himpit yang dimakan pada hari ketiga di rumah orang lain kerana tidak boleh memaafkan diri sendiri kalau memakan makanan ini di rumah sendiri kerana sudah makan secara pukal pada hari raya yang pertama. T_T

 

ni bukan nak buat ensiklopedia tentang makanan yang popular pada hari raya. saja je nak amek gamba keputat .. eh i mean ketupat sehari sebelum raya. 

 

 sedang memasak rendang untuk keesokan harinya

 

ini adalah supervisor; memastikan tukang amek gambar tidak membuat sebarang onar seperti mengacau rendang hingga hancur

 

tukang amek gamba terpaksa buang masa amek gamba kerana dia telah terhiris tangan sendiri semasa menghiris bawang. lain orang suruh buat, lain yang dia buat TSK

 

semangat kene jitu masa nak masak rendang. dah yang kau tu dok amek gamba semate tak reti-reti nak tolong?

 

tangan nampak shaky sebagai tanda beliau ingin berlalu pergi meninggalkan saya dengan kamera

 

penat jugak bercerita. mari kita minum dulu

 

ini pula wajah sepupu saya yang mungkin sedang mengira duit raya yang diberikan oleh sanak-saudara di pagi hari raya. sorikan i kasi duit raya yang kecl jumlahnya. i dah belanja u buke pose oke what? 

ni pulak...bukan kuih di rumah sendiri.

ya begitulah cerita raya saya. saya kembali bekerja pada hari raya keempat. sekian terima kasih

looking for something
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I am still reading the book about the qualities of the leader. Ouh no, I'm not planning to take over any major seats in the company that I'm attached with but the idea of taking over Richard Branson's company does not sound too bad. Yeah, wishful thinking.

I would like to share this part where the writer touches on loving what you do. Well, that's not the exact word in the book but I am too lazy to walk to my room and take the book so bear with me.

When we were young (I don't think small is appropriate because some people stay small and slim forever.nblasyfafbeufho. Lucky them), we have a lot of fantasies. I remember wanting to become a scientist (nowhere close), a teacher (no chance), a lawyer (loyar buruk bole la) and I may have the dream to become the person who discovers artifacts and fossils. I was driven, reading books after books upon my current fascination then and nothing seemed like a rouutine. Every day was filled with excitement, there never was a moment to feel bored because there's so much things to imagine. Like how I'm going to discover new viruses and teach my soft toys some idioms. Well, being the only girl has its own disadvantages like you'll end up a tree if you really want to push your brothers to play without.

Wait. Maybe I did ask them to climb the tree with me. Well, never mind.

But as we get older, we forgot how to imagine. And when we forgot how to imagine, there's no fun anymore. I personaly sometimes feel trapped. I go through this whole routine of waiting for the bus, walking to the office, pretend to be busy, do the job, read some work-related emails (well if not all the time, almost all the time then) and then go home. Repeat the steps like ten times and be ready to fall into a coma. I'm just painting the scenario though because I'm blessed with an office full of fun people. But I had the experience when I worked with other places. I feel there's nothing that iIcan do. I feel trapped. And I realised that it happened because I let go of the thing that I love to do.

Its good to be doing something that you like and good at. Like, some peope are good at playing the piano but sometimes they forgot to allocate the time to play it, citing reasons like busy, no time bla bla bla. But after reading the particular chapter, I realised that doing something that we love to do is a good way of de-stressing out selves. And doing something that we are good at and honing the skill might even become more satisying.

Go back to the root. Reflect back to the time when we are young (if can, innocent). What are the things that we spend hours doing that we forgot to sleep, eat or even play with other people. Playing hide-and-seek may not be applicable here. Find that activity and start doing it again. Break the routine of just going to work and returning home to sleep. Break it by doing the thing that we love. I love reading and I really can't wait to go back and read something. Reading is something that I love doing since I was a little kid and i can just get lost in the midst of the sea of books. Which reminds me that I didn't manage to get Time Traveller's Time *cries.

I don't know Zila. Maybe my Personal Legend is not teaching. Because I remember writing stories when I was young. A LOT. I spent hours writing and perfecting the characters. Maybe that's my Personal Legend because I enjoy it the most. But I do appreciate you trying to suggest what my Personal Legend is because I was blur. Maybe this is the path that I should take although I may not end up as JK Rowling (imagine having lunch in Buckingham Palace weih) or Stephen King (gile bes ni byk buku jadi movie).

I know what I need to do now. I know what gives me the satisfaction (apart from eating). So, why not go find the thing that you love to do to break the routine? And tell me how it feels.

 Kapasitor Edisi Raya: Menanti Kepulangan Apun

' Hoh? bahagian satu?' itu kata-kata kucing tersebut slps di alih bahasa

 

Hari ini dia ingin pulang ke tanah malaya. langkahnya yakin dan laju meninggalkan jurugambar yang tidak sempat mengejar kerana beliau memakai wedges maka takut terpelecok. heee

  

fikiran beliau melayang mengingatkan kampung halaman dan rakan taulan

  

terkenang semasa kecil, kenangan bersama keluarga membeli tiket komuter. oke maaf tiada gamba lama maka terimalah ini dan diam-diam saja

  

 rakan menanti dengan penuh sabar sampai mulut herot-herot

 

yang ini pula kebosanan maka mengambil gamba sendiri

  

safina sabar menunggu, begitu juga duku yang santai tidak seperti jo siap bersampin (padahal kasut putih tu kasut apun)

  

kau kenape saf? tenang je macam nia. selamba

  

cubaan menghilangkan kebosanan menanti apun yang akan sampai dari negara matahari terbit

  

 ya, selagi ada masa dan selagi memory card belum penuh

  

kelihatan itu syuhada memegang telefon. mungkinkah signal dari apun yang ingin menyatakan beliau sudah tiba

   

 satu-persatu keretapi lalu singgah di stesen, bayang apun masih tiada

  

mereka tua dimakan waktu (padahal satu je tren)

  

 apun sudah tiba dan itu lintas-langsung dari safina17

  

apun menyembunyikan kesyahduan disambut mesra oleh rakan-taulan

  

senyumnya makin lebar apabila bertemu caha

  

maaf kerana terpaksa mengecewakan anda. kita bertemu lagi. ta~

i just got back from iftar Kapasitor.net 2009. tonnes of pictures but will have to wait before i will have the strength to upload it. thanks to everyone who came. and those who can't join us, maybe later. see you peeps

3rd day puasa and this is actually my first day back in KL. i spent two days in Klang where my mum has to endure the pain of waking me up. me saying 'ye..ha' when I actually spelt right through sahur. meaning, no sahur. and then i followed dear mum to shop. sikit lagi nak buat aksi terpengsan di pasar.

so, i decided that this year i am going to change. i will wake up to at least drink something, if not wat. and today it's a competition as i managed to grab something a few minutes before the call of azan subuh. here goes the dialogue:
'eh angah nak sahur?'
me (very blur): ha ye la. sempat kan?
'eh lps ni azan la?'
'hah ye ke?' and i proceeded to dip my spoon into my auntie's tall tin of planta (she was making raya cookies) and smooth it on top of my toasted bread. well, a slice. and while chomping of it, my cousin gave me words of encouragement
'ye cepat angah cepat. dah nak azan dah ni?'
and i managed to swallow it all before azan. well, only a slice but better than nothing.

that's my 3rd day of ramadhan. how's yours?

it came when you least expect it
(apart from the ability of -mengajak-diri-sendiri-dgn-selambe-dan-tidak-malu
it's only lunch
not invitation to the house of something

i'm like .... :D