Di dunia maya ini, terdapat pelbagai jenis blog. Maklumlah, sejak adanya Internet, semua orang rasa mereka perlu berkata sesuatu (macam aku) sekalipun dia tak pasti itu betul atau tidak. Kalau ada orang baca lagi seronok kan? Ya, anda yang sedang membaca tulisan ini, terima kasih banyak-banyak.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Perihal Mengelak Baca Blog-blog Begini
Di dunia maya ini, terdapat pelbagai jenis blog. Maklumlah, sejak adanya Internet, semua orang rasa mereka perlu berkata sesuatu (macam aku) sekalipun dia tak pasti itu betul atau tidak. Kalau ada orang baca lagi seronok kan? Ya, anda yang sedang membaca tulisan ini, terima kasih banyak-banyak.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Perihal Blog Tanpa Iklan
Saturday, August 20, 2011
One Less Saliva Gland (2)
My blood was taken for lab test and I was also exposed to the radiation via X-ray. And again:
' We'll look at the result on Monday. If we found out that something is irregular with your blood, I will refer you to the hospital.' I know I shouldn't but seriously, it worried me more. And of course I pretended I was oke.
Monday came and by lunch hour, I was carrying the huge X-ray film to lunch. The doctor said that there was nothing wrong with my chest (phew!) but my erythrocyte sedimentation rate (ESR) was slightly higher than normal. My stomach felt like it shrank to the size of a plum. It was scary to hear those words. I was then referred to the hospital. Took the next day off and head to the hospital.
I went to the Emergency Room first and upon examination, they asked another question that if I have a cat. I spent about an hour behind the curtain before I was referred to the specialist clinic. It was not something that I want to do but heck, early detection is better (as in detection for anything). So to the specialist clinic I march since I also would like to make sure that I am oke.
I had to come the next day as the doctor has already gone for an operation. He is actually the general surgeon specialist (based on the plaque outside his room). I was sick to the stomach. I was thinking about TB and importantly, cancer. Everytime I touch the swelling, I wish it would subside just a little bit until it was gone.
I was lucky that the doctor was in the next day. Again, I carried the X-ray to his room and guess what? He said it was not clear. Another blood test and X-ray because he said he can almost see nothing.
I had to admit, when I when down to the lab and let them take more blood, I was feeling a bit feverish. It must be my nerves because I was not having fever or anything. Imagine having a lump somewhere on your neck, with the doctor saying that the location is near to the lymph node, there's only one thing. I began to sweat just to think about those words.
The X-ray room was quite pack but the queue is moving pretty fast so phew! again. But I did not come just for the X-ray, I also had to do ultrasound. Many of my friends have went through this except that they were doing it as they were carrying a baby. So that was how it was. Gel on the neck with the device, which surface is very cold to the skin. I became a guinea pig because there was also a student in the room when the doctor was doing the check up.
I did the check up during weekdays and had to come pick up the report on Saturday. It was during this time that the doctor told me that I need to undergo a small operation to check what was wrong near my neck. By that time, it was very close to being determined as infection but again, it is better to be sure.
I almost backed out because I know the operation will cost a bomb. And then I remembered that I have insurance. Darn it. I blame in on panic.
The check up also discovered a very small tumour (about 9mm) near my thyroid. This tumour is now being monitored with my first treatment scheduled in September 2011.
Nevertheless, the operation took place on Thursday afternoon. The report came out and it severe infection and my submandibular is removed. A month later, the pain is nearly gone but there were times when it became unbearable. But alhamdulillah, no complications or stuff.
So, that is my journey. Swelling that goes on for more than a week should not be neglected. I;m no doctor but please, if any of you are looking for the answer for 'a lump on the neck', I suggest to find them from a certified doctor.
Selamat hari raya.
One Less Saliva Gland (1)
It started with a noticeable lump on my neck one morning, Friday morning in fact. It appeared suddenly one morning and it was painful. I clearly remembered that I was having trouble to move my head and the lump area was hot. I panicked. at this time and day, any weird lumps are considered dangerous. i keep thinking 'cancer'.
as usual, i picked up the phone to call a friend and decided that I really have to go to the clinic at 11.30am, during lunch.
That started it. The doctor said that we have to wait for one week and at the time, she just said that we had to prepare if its tuberculosis. there were the usual questions like 'was i sick a few days ago?', 'was there any coughing?'. As the answers were no, the doctor began to relax and scheduled for another appointment in one week for blood test and x-ray.
I was worried, almost could not concentrate. My energy was focused on not googling anything on cancer because self-diagnosis only leads to self-destruction. On one sitting, I discovered that I was the perfect candidate of about three deadly sickness. having said that, yes, I succumbed two days later. i wasn't proud of googling the information.
then came the slow wait to the next week.
during the course of one week, i wasn't feeling any pain on the lump when not touched. It was not terribly painful when touched either. But what got me really worried was the fact that the swelling did not show any sign of getting smaller. There was very slight change.
And another Friday arrived.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Playing Aunt Agony
You know when people call radio stations to tell the radio announcers (or rather, the whole nation) about their problems. That is rather expensive, don't you think? So, I thought, hey! I can give them solutions for free. So, why not do it here?
Dear Aunt Agony,
My name is Ina and I am 24 years old, currently seeing someone. My boyfriend is 26 years old.
My boyfriend is not working in the country and honestly, we are not sure when he is coming back.
At the same time, I'm also seeing an older guy, kind of a family friend. He's 44 years old with stable income.
Who should I pick? I love my boyfriend but I would love to have a rich boyfriend. And the 44-year old guy always bring me gifts and such. My mother really like him.
What should I do?
Answer: You are certainly materialistic so I really do not see the problem here. Your type (falls under the gold digger category) should always choose the rich ones and never marry them because I believe you'll have a hard time being loyal when the bank account gets smaller. If you truly love your boyfriend, you won't be writing in for the whole world to know that you are not wife-material, based on your statement: I would love to have a rich boyfriend.
If I was your boyfriend, I'd dump you at a heartbeat. And I would also leave you if I'm the 44 year old guy.
Hope this helps you!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Perihal Duit Raya
Yang sepatutnya perlu aku beri hadiah adalah dua sepupu yang di rumah.
Tahun pertama, kandungan sampul duit raya adalah sama.
Tahun kedua, aku isi duit secara random (RM 50, RM 30, RM 10) dan mereka perlu pilih secara random. Sungguh mengujakan, bukan?
Mungkin tahun ini....
Sampul duit raya.
Kertas surat khabar.
Duit syiling lima sen dua keping.
Kira macam cabutan bertuahlah.
Agak-agak, nanti sepupu aku buat patung voodo utk balas dendam kat aku tak?
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Perihal Chuzzles
Adakah anda sudah bersedia? Ah deng kenapalah perlu mengalih bahasa? Oke sengaja.
Ah lihatlah.
Lihat lihat lihat. Comel comel comel. Nanti mata kelip-kelip. Grrr.
Tengoklah bola biru muda yang sangat comel itu. Temok-temok. Ah comelnye. Rasa nak picit-picit.
Ah oke. Gila tau. Sanggup beli ni. Dah sudah. Nak main solitaire ke dominoes ke.
Perihal Horrible Bosses
Aku sebenarnya tak tahu pun kewujudan cerita ini sebenarnya tetapi kemudian aku telah menonton trailer cerita ini (tanpa sengaja) pada suatu hari. Nampak macam ada Jennifer Aniston jadi mestilah aku mahu tonton. Mula-mula hanya sekadar mahu tetapi kemudian terdengar pula perkataan 'murder plot for their bosses'. Maka, perlukah dicucuk-cucuk untuk menonton cerita ini? Pastinya tidak.
Anda seorang pesalahlaku seks. Anda pernah ditangkap kerana berkelakuan tidak senonoh, kencing di taman permainan kanak-kanak pada waktu malam ketika mabuk. Disebabkan itu, anda sangat tidak boleh memilih kerja kerana hampir semua majikan tidak mahu menggaji anda. Ini adalah watak Dale. Kesian Dale kerana kena buli dengan Julia (Jennifer Aniston), maneater. Ini adalah bos yang boleh membuatkan anda kurus pahala puasa dengan sekurus-kurusnya. Beware, people.
Mereka berasa sangat tertekan dengan keadaan majikan mereka hingga timbul 'hypothetically killing our bosses'. Daripada small talk di pub, mereka telah melangkah setapak lagi.
Dan twist dalam cerita itu yang aku suka. Kau rancang nak bunuh bos kau, lepas tu kau dilepaskan daripada idea itu. Kira macam outsourcing yang tak sengaja. Har har har har.
The Rotten Tomatoes memberikan rating 6.75/10 (last I've seen it).
Monday, August 15, 2011
The One With Being The Patient
I finally found out how it felt like be treated as a sick person. Fevers and headaches are temporary but recovering from an operation is something different. Try feeling like someone is clutching your right jaw constantly for about three months.
The experience changed the views that I had of people who are sick. I used to tiptoe around a subject when I talk to a sick person or try to constantly talk about the person's illness or something. I felt that it was important to ask how they are feeling AS FREQUENT AS POSSIBLE so they will know that I care. I felt that it will be very insensitive to not talk about how they are feeling, my comments will be dripping with sympathy.
Now that I've gone through the experience, I learnt that less is more. It was a mixed feeling, really.
On one hand, I have been in the viewers' shoes, wanting to show people that I care for them and now I am the person feeling it. I need distraction from my pain; laugh at silly stuff as a deflection of the sharp pain on my jaw. Now, it's the neck, it used to be the jaw. I'm sure it will be near the chin later. Nevermind.
So, I know this is difficult. Not asking entirely will be insensitive but maybe the patient wants something to distract them. Being sympathetic is allright but making them at least smile can be a good thing.
Positivity helps during the recovery process and I'm truly glad to have positive people around me. I love their dark humour, silly humour, fun humour and other types of humour; I truly love them. And my mother. The first night I had to stay alone at the other bed was empty. She asked 'aren't you afraid of sleeping alone? You know...' Ghosts, I know. It is good that she still can joke with me about the stuff. Ouh and I love chocolates from visitors.
The experience has been an eye-opener (and pocket burner. Can't wait for the claims to be approved). I don't have everything but I'm happy with whatever I have. Great people, you know who you are :).
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Perihal Tarik Trafik
adalah dalam beberapa bulan aku perhatikani perkembangan trafik ke blog. ala bukan susah pun, tgk je la stat. macam tak biasa buat. bukan banyak sangat kerja pun. sebelum nak tidur tu, check stat sikit. tak pun masa menyelit bawah ketiak org dalam putra ke. ikut kesesuaian.
apapun, lama aku perhatikan stats tu. takdelah berubah mana. mungkin takde isu hot kot seperti New Arrivals, Freemason, Arlene Tan dan lain-lain dalam bahasa inggeris. yang ada cuma entry bercuti di sabah. aih...tiba-tiba terasa angin sejuk ranau. ah, lupakan.
lalu, aku kembali beralih-arah kepada medium perantaraan bahasa ibunda sendiri. dari situ aku perasan yang boleh tahan juga banyak keyword yang masuk. kerana blog ini tidak meletakkan gosip artis, maka tidaklah begitu ramai yang masuk tetapi lebih banyak daripada masa aku menulis menggunakan bahasa inggeris.
jadi, bolehlah disimpulkan jika kita mahu menulis untuk trafik (no one is judging. someone has got to pay for my spectacles and even a few extra hundred comes in handy), tidak salah kalau nak berbahasa malaysia.
hingga di kapasitor sekalipun, entri dalam bahasa malaysia adalah lebih banyak dan lebih kerap dikunjungi berbanding bahasa inggeris.
sekian, dulu. pemerhatian di atas tidak dijalankan menggunakan kaedah saintifik maka keputusannya boleh diragui.
selamat berbuka semua!
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Beware of 'The Spa'
Perihal So-Called Freedom of Religion
tak, aku tak marah pun kau buat page tu. aku faham setengah orang memang dia akan hidup selama-lamanya :).
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Terima kasih
Bes juga birthday bulan puasa ni.
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Monday, August 08, 2011
Perihal Mamai
So, at three something, I marched to the nearest supermarket to get the ingredients. I was by then, walking in clouds. But I managed to complete the task anyways. The journey back was almost uneventful (or I was too engrossed in Guards! Guards! Guards from Terry Pratchett).
One long dream and one series of dream (I sometimes dream when I take afternoon naps), I woke up and marched to the freezer. The pre-mix wrote '30-minute' hence I was not in a rush to marinate the beef earlier. So, coolly (or rather, groggily) I reached for the white plastic bag in the freezer ( I AM THAT bad when I'm really sleepy).
I am lost between the brackets. Let me see....
Never, people, expect anything sensible when I'm sleepy.
Sunday, August 07, 2011
Perihal Ular
Petang semalam, waktu nak buka, tiba-tiba kecoh sekejap. Waktu tu dah dekat jam 7. Tengah tunggu masa je bila nak susun makanan untuk membaham.
Kucing main dengan anak ular. Tak panjang dan diameternya pun tak besar. Lebih kurang jari hantu aku. Kalau jari syud, mungkin ibu jari. Orang yang jarinya runcing (beserta fizikal yang kurus dan ramping) mungkin perlu gabung dua jari kalau nak ukur anak ular itu. Kalau jari anak buah aku...
Ah sudah. Bergaduh pasal jari pula.
Pendek kata, kucing kami main ular sampai ular mati. Bagus juga adakucin kat rumah ni. Tapi aku paling meluat kalau semua tempat pun dia nak buat jamban.
Sudah lapan hari. Cepatnya masa berlalu.
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Friday, August 05, 2011
Perihal Jadual Bulan Puasa
seringkali saya bersikap bongkak di Twitter kerana pulang awal (oke baiklah mengaku, maafkan saya). keji sungguh perangai berikut tetapi sedarkah anda sebenarnya saya sudah sangat penat di pejabat?
bangun: 5.15 pagi
kemudian sahur, siap bla bla.
6.15 sudah tunggu bas. sampai pejabat jam 7 lebih.
print berita, ringkaskan. submit. print lagi dan ringkaskan lagi. ulang selama lapan jam.
sangat mencabar keimanan, oke? jadi, tidaklah perlu sesiapa (baca: syud) jeles. koh koh.
P/S: hujung minggu untuk bekerja. see? saya jeles anda (baca:syud) tak keje.
Thursday, August 04, 2011
Perihal Pac Man
Bukan. Bukan tentang game. Tetapi tentang pola pemakanan. Minggu ini, rahang masih sakit. Waktu orang makan untuk berbuka seperti Pac Man, aku cuma makan perlahan-lahan di tepi. Sungguh rindukan zaman berebut semua benda. Dan aku tak semangat nak makan lama-lama. Elok jugalah. Tapi hari ni, memang sakit leher bila nak bercakap. Rasa macam tisu tertarik.
Hurm...I have a feeling that I shouldn't go on. Why? Someone cringed when I asked if the person can take a look at my scar. Nasib baik sepupu cukup berani untuk tangkap gambar parut. Gambar yang akan disimpan jadi kenangan. Hak hak.
Patutlah derang buat muka. Ngeri juga walaupun luka dah kering. Dahlah. Marilah tidur awal hari ini.
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Wednesday, August 03, 2011
Perihal Memori Ramadhan (2)
Waktu itu, hostel sebelah masjid je. Oke bila teringat, malu juga ni tak pegi buka kat masjid terus. Cis. Anyways, mudahla, tak perlu pasang telinga dgn gigih pun boleh dengar azan.
Bukan macam kat rumah, buka di hostel cuma perlu tatang sebuah pinggan dan bawa diri ke kawasan berbuka. Mudah sangat-sangat. Tetapi biasalah, bkn macam dekat rumah, perlu menyibukkan diri dengan susun makanan, berebut ambik pinggan, berebut amik air tuang dalam cawan. Memang sengsara juga nak tunggu buka puasa.
Jadi, untuk membuang masa, aku lun mengadap word game dekat yahoo. Ala macam Scrabble lah. Maka, aku pun mainlah, dengan tunggu opponent semua. Dah set table, macam biasalah invite pemain. Yang bencinya, main game ni memang resminya kene tunggu orang. Lemah betul tapi nak buat macam mana.
Jadi tunggulah. Nak dekat buka tu, ada pulak orang US masuk table. Kalau ikut ID, bukan orang-orang yang berpuasa. Tapi takpe, itu tak penting.
Beberapa minit main, dah mula dengar orang nak azan. Apa lagi, terus terjun ke tenpat duduk. Game aku biarkan.
Kalau buka ramai-ramai ni, patut bole siap makan dalam 10 minit tapi siap dalam masa 20 minit. Bila aku teringat aku tgh main scrabble, aku tgk opponents aku dok terhelo-helo dah dekat 20 minit.
Kesian. Saya tidak sengajalah.
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Tuesday, August 02, 2011
Perihal Memori Ramadhan
Walaupun aku sekolah perempuan, aktif boleh tahan. Jadi bila dah balik rumah, memang leper la jawabnya. Tapi kene tolong juga siapkan tempat makan. Bila makanan dah dibawa naik atas, yang tinggal cuma jag berisi teh. Akulah kena bawa.
Masa tu tinggal berapa minit je lagi nak buka. Serius berapa minit je lagi. Tapi memang dahaga gila, Tuhan je yag tau. On the way nak bawa jag naik atas, aku minum air. Ceh! Sungguh tak senonoh. But desperate times call for desperate measures (konon). Tak semenggah betul.
Terus serta-merta rasa segar-bugar. Bila naik atas, atuk aku ckp 'dia dh minum air tu'. Haih. Memang tak boleh sorok apa-apalah.
Nasib baik tak kena marah.
Sekarang tak buat dah. Walaupun tersentak bila ada bau kopi dekat pejabat.
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Monday, August 01, 2011
Perihal Ikea
Rasanya, elok kalau saya bawa bakul piknik sekali. Dalam tu ada makanan dan minuman kalau beliau tak larat. Mungkin beliau tidak akan berasa penat hinggalah sampai ke bahagian katil. So, breakfast in bed, mom?
Nantilah aku usahakan. Aku bukan suka sangat pergi Ikea tu. Sekejap, jangan lahar aku dulu. Itu semua salah aku. Lepas terpaksa jalan tiga jam dengan high heels, aku tobat dah nak pergi situ. Serius.
Lagi-lagi pulak aku ni gilakan buku lebih daripada benda lain. Semalam bole pulak beli the Big Friendly Giant dan George's Marvellous Medicine sedangkan baru je beli Guards! Guards! Guards! dan Eric (Terry Pratchett). Padahal ada lagi dua buku tak habis baca, sentuh pun tidak.
Sudah lewat. Patutnya dh mengantuk sekarang. Marilah rangsang rasa mengantuk.
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